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Remember Me as a Time of Day

The feeling of walking in foreign skin is a familiar friend. The comfort of normalcy is a stranger and foe—we do battle just as someone might brush their teeth or wash their clothes. A necessary, repetitive task.

This battle is a shadow game filled with unusual obstacles that are sharp at both points. When you feel like you’ve conquered one enemy another slips through while your back was turned. I know these antagonist very well. They are my expectations.

Fighting myself is the ultimate battle. Every day is another chapter written about a long, taxing war that is filled with comforts and familiarities. I was never assembled to be passive. I find discomfort in settling.

Early in my life I followed personal convictions that were eventually pushed aside like a well-intentioned apology letter that was never sent. I lost focus, I became content with not moving forward.

The Sky Above, The Field Below

I am now stepping off that cliff; breaking down the walls that I have involuntarily constructed. With sails wide open I know I will always be slightly lost, but my destinations will be limitless and through that knowledge I will find my way 1 and never lose track.

My future holds more unknowns than certainties but only in quantity. These few certainties are genuine in their value and my life will overflow with their fruit. I only have one regret looking back for the last time, and it’s I wish I had not disappeared for so long.

We are always getting ready to live but never living. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

Stepping aside from formalities for a moment, this blog will be my accounts of everything I hope to experience and my personal canvas to express creatively the elements in my life that I care for deeply. I want to watch myself grow as an artist and person.

Finally, to the cherished people who have passed though my life: remember me as a time of day 2, when I’m at my best; it’s everything I strive for and the person I truly am behind these breaking layers. -JB

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